…that my life changed dramatically, for the second time (31st August 1974)!
Three years prior to this I had come to know Jesus, very unexpectedly, and it changed everything, from the inside out, in a moment.
I was trying to be very good in His service from that day on. However my very best wasn’t good enough, I was shocked to learn.
He didn’t want “my very best”, He just wanted me, and He wanted me to learn that all I needed was to want Him, then He would be in the driving seat, not me.
So what did He have to do to get my attention, to literally stop me dead in my tracks?…
I was just 20 years of age when I got hit by a bus, and nearly died!
I survived, obviously, but immediately after the shock of the realisation of what had happened a very short, intimate conversation took place between us, and everything changed, again.
It took three months of going nowhere, in a hospital bed, with other painful experiences to drill His point home during this time. A full year of physiotherapy and rehabilitation followed that.
Within two years I was in India, where I spent a total of ten years and witnessed miracles. I had already experienced these sorts of things throughout Europe before this, but going further afield required greater faith I guess, and letting go to let Him lead, guide and provide was the necessary element.
After having to leave India I eventually found myself in Hong Kong and Taiwan for another ten years. More miracles of an increasingly amazing and varied variety, requiring more faith, took place there.
Then, after having to leave the East I found myself in a very small place, Iceland, and again found myself experiencing even greater miracles, for another ten years.
Six years ago I had to return to the U.K. to care for my aged and invalid mother, my only surviving close family relative besides my sister, who lives far from here. I arrived here on 1st August 2013. In a way I have come full circle from when I left “home”, forty eight years ago on September 9th, 1971.
I think that this has now become my biggest “test”, and I will explain why…
I did not expect to be here this long.
My mother was not in the best of health when I first got here, and she has had several “episodes” during this time, some requiring hospitalisation for a while. However, she still has all her mental faculties at 90 years of age, and lately she is in the process of being signed-off of one of the greater concerns the medical folks have had for her well-being for a long time. She is now just needing watchful care and physical relief from having to stand for very long, or walk very far, as she is quite unstable and in pain doing these things. Thus I take care of the physical maintenance of her life, except her personal toiletries which she can still manage.
I have plans to go mobile when my mother passes, but that could still be years from now. I turned 65 earlier this year, in January, and my health is beginning to deteriorate now, so I wonder if going mobile will still be feasible in the future. We’ll see.
There are other problems to deal with eventually also, mostly financial. I hope to have somewhat of an inheritance that will help me to be able to afford a mobile accommodation of some kind, on wheels or water, because I will be homeless otherwise, as well as unemployable. I am not entitled to any of the normal social security benefits, for reasons too complicated to explain, and I will not receive any pensions of any kind.
The other day I was thinking about my miraculous existence for the last 48 years. I was not so much worrying about what might be the remainder of my life and how I might get through it, but I was wondering about it, when this scripture came to mind, and I will trust in it…
Psalm 37:25 I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread.
I have known this to be true until now, so how would this not also be true later?
“One day at a time, sweet Jesus. That’s all I am asking of You.”
Philippians 4:19 But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
4:20 Now unto God and our Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.